Slave?

Slave?

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• |10/18/2010 04:49 pm
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i was recently sent a letter describing what a real slave is. im not sure why this Dom sent it but i read it anyway. According to this letter i am not a slave at all. i am a submissive.
Thplace to live, bathroom facilities, heath and dental taken care of. If a person is letter stated that the only thing a slave can expect from her owner is a expects anything else or desires anything else, they are not truly a slave.They are a submissive.
The letter had me thinking what i want from an Owner.....i want to be loved and cherished and for those things i give myself.i want and need to be as important to my Master as He is to me.For my surrender i need to know He loves me.With this love validated i give to Him my submission and everything that goes with that.
In order for me to be open and give of myself freely i need to know He will take care of me and keep me safe....safe from making my own life a mess. Safe in the fact that He understands me. That He knows that i can be a train wreck but i also can be a very well behaved sub.i need to know that when i am a train wreck He will show the strength and the wisdom to settle me down.Whether it be with words or His punishment for me.i need to know that i can trust Him to oversee my life and make the necessary changes and corrections. i am usually full of emotion or drama that prevents me from making great choices. i would just assume to never have to make my own choices again.
It seems to me that i am the happiest when serving. i enjoy knowing that my place is on my knees. That at any given moment i could be used, or punished, or simply reminded of my requirements. i am totally content when spending all my time with my Owner. i need not outside distractions. Just the look of approval on His face is enough. To be told "good girl" brings such pleasure to me it bubbles out of me.To disappoint leaves such a horrible feeling of shame that makes my stomache feel sick.Makes me want to hide under a bed or in a corner.
so the question is am i a slave or a submissive. i am what He says i am.