Master's toy box! :)
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i have no idea how or why i am so lucky that Master has allowed me to be a part of His life...
Master and i shared a wonderful evening in the kitchen...it was such a pleasure to be His little helper. He taught me how to make a smoothie and shared His secret ingredient to His delicious beans...
Sitting there on the chair,wearing His football jersey of His favorite team, i chopped things He needed. The conversation was so easy..it was like W/we had known each other always.
Master disappeared and i continued to work while wondering where He had gone. Sipping on the smoothie He made for me and listening to the soft music playing in the back ground, i couldn't stop smiling. What a slice of heaven...
Master told me to go to His room and remove His shirt...i set down His knife and headed for His room. My eyes dropped to His bag on the floor and all the things laying outside of it. As i set His shirt down i seen the cuffs and chains on the bed.
Master had me sit on the bed as He started to cuff my feet. While He held each foot in His hand, tightening the cuffs, i felt like a little girl getting her shoes put on...i wont ever forget that feeling. Holding out my wrists for Him, thoughts were in my head on how i would do. Would i fill His needs enough?
i pushed these thoughts out of my mind and decided i would give my body to Him...no matter what. i belonged to Him and i trusted Him...all the rest would fall into place. i couldn't help but think about how much i adored Him for wanting to take me to this place in service i had never ventured. He was my guide to an intensity i had never known....
Feeling the chains tighten on my wrists and ankles, being spread eagle on my belly i realized just how much i trust this Man...my Master...with everything that i am. How incredible to be so vulnerable with someone.
i closed my eyes and prepared for His use. Master taught me about inhaling pain and exhaling pleasure that night. The pain would come in like the waves in the ocean coming up on the sand further and further...while the pleasure will slowly go back out again....leaving everything in its path wet and shimmering.
At one point i thought i might weaken and the pain would get to be to much. i reminded myself i am His slave and how He was bringing me to the darker side of my fantasies and how incredibly arousing that was. i needed to be all that i could be for Him...With my eyes closed and these thoughts running in my mind, the gates opened.
The tears came...these tears were not from pain. They came from all the sensations He had given me.They came from the bond between us that was now even stronger. From the deepest part of my soul...where only Master has ever been. They were tears for the passion that has been locked inside of me for so long waiting for the Master with the key. They were tears of relief...that He had come for me and was there to set me free. Free from the control over my life...free from hiding my fantasies and desires....free to give myself to the One that is now my everything. The One that has given me a place of comfort and a place to be who i am without fear of judgement.
As i lay in Master's arms, i wanted to tell Him so much. i couldn't speak...The tears kept flowing and i felt so many emotions i doubt i could explain them all. i have never felt so safe as i did that night in His arms.
i am Master's slave and because of Him all things are possible.....
Master and i shared a wonderful evening in the kitchen...it was such a pleasure to be His little helper. He taught me how to make a smoothie and shared His secret ingredient to His delicious beans...
Sitting there on the chair,wearing His football jersey of His favorite team, i chopped things He needed. The conversation was so easy..it was like W/we had known each other always.
Master disappeared and i continued to work while wondering where He had gone. Sipping on the smoothie He made for me and listening to the soft music playing in the back ground, i couldn't stop smiling. What a slice of heaven...
Master told me to go to His room and remove His shirt...i set down His knife and headed for His room. My eyes dropped to His bag on the floor and all the things laying outside of it. As i set His shirt down i seen the cuffs and chains on the bed.
Master had me sit on the bed as He started to cuff my feet. While He held each foot in His hand, tightening the cuffs, i felt like a little girl getting her shoes put on...i wont ever forget that feeling. Holding out my wrists for Him, thoughts were in my head on how i would do. Would i fill His needs enough?
i pushed these thoughts out of my mind and decided i would give my body to Him...no matter what. i belonged to Him and i trusted Him...all the rest would fall into place. i couldn't help but think about how much i adored Him for wanting to take me to this place in service i had never ventured. He was my guide to an intensity i had never known....
Feeling the chains tighten on my wrists and ankles, being spread eagle on my belly i realized just how much i trust this Man...my Master...with everything that i am. How incredible to be so vulnerable with someone.
i closed my eyes and prepared for His use. Master taught me about inhaling pain and exhaling pleasure that night. The pain would come in like the waves in the ocean coming up on the sand further and further...while the pleasure will slowly go back out again....leaving everything in its path wet and shimmering.
At one point i thought i might weaken and the pain would get to be to much. i reminded myself i am His slave and how He was bringing me to the darker side of my fantasies and how incredibly arousing that was. i needed to be all that i could be for Him...With my eyes closed and these thoughts running in my mind, the gates opened.
The tears came...these tears were not from pain. They came from all the sensations He had given me.They came from the bond between us that was now even stronger. From the deepest part of my soul...where only Master has ever been. They were tears for the passion that has been locked inside of me for so long waiting for the Master with the key. They were tears of relief...that He had come for me and was there to set me free. Free from the control over my life...free from hiding my fantasies and desires....free to give myself to the One that is now my everything. The One that has given me a place of comfort and a place to be who i am without fear of judgement.
As i lay in Master's arms, i wanted to tell Him so much. i couldn't speak...The tears kept flowing and i felt so many emotions i doubt i could explain them all. i have never felt so safe as i did that night in His arms.
i am Master's slave and because of Him all things are possible.....
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