Diaries of Naughty..Things to do with Your slave on Sadistic Sat. :)

So it's been awhile since i rushed across town to spend the morning with a Sadist...how often in life can a person say that sentence ?  What a morning with Master...:) i am still spinning.

 

i don't know if He woke feeling frisky, if He had planned this the night before, or if something about the way i looked had Him wanting to take me for the roller coaster ride. What ever it was...i will never look at chop sticks in the same way ever again.

 

He played me back and forth so hard this morning between extreme affection to sadistic mind fuck games. i find myself sitting here with blank spots in my mind and a stupid grin plastered to my face. i am unable to have a normal conversation and it has been hours. He had me so bad off i was making strange noises and talking to myself...the best part is when He would try and act innocent and ask me what was wrong...and i was so messed up all i could do was say "fuck" and giggle a lot.

 

There was so many things i am starring out my window trying to remember them all or how He even started it. i remember snuggling Him while He sat in His chair...i said something smart ass and told Him i was just teasing...;) note to self...He has far too many things around the house that are cures for a smart ass. For example chop sticks on the nipples and one of those big clips that you put on chip bags on the tongue. Now when someone is squeezing that clamp on the tongue and chop sticks are hanging from your nipples..it is truly amazing how you have nothing sarcastic to say. Who knew one of those big clumsy clips could hurt so much if just the right amount of pressure is applied. The added bonus to that would be the humiliation factor..due to the fact one looks like a dumb ass with a clip on their tongue whining at their Master.

 

Here are some more of the things He thought of:

 

A fun one..when your slave is trying to recover from the heat you just placed in her, tell her to get on the laundry. This becomes a perfect time to lock her in the laundry room when she is busy trying to regain her senses and get her chores done.Imagine the look of surprise when she tries to open the door and can't get out. when letting the slave out of the laundry closet make sure to turn up the heat again...

 

Oh here is another fun one...when your slave is on her knees trying to figure out what is going on in Your head...tell her her only problem is she is inattentive. Tell her to look around and figure out what she has missed. Add extra pressure about how You will be mad if she doesn't figure this out while reminding her to keep looking. Demanding what is the answer...all of this is the perfect way to let her know Your coffee cup is empty.After all how boring would it be to simply say..i need some coffee girl...

 

While in the garage with her start pulling out the scariest tools You have in the tool box...twist her mind having her watch You look at each one and then at her.While she dances nervously wondering what in the fuck You are gonna do next..top it off with the most sadistic laugh You have.Lead her back into the house with her hands behind her back holding her by the thumbs,breasts exposed so that she fears the neighbors might see...

 

This is a really good time to apply the heat again. This can be done well with passionate kisses...or slaps to the face...choking her with her collar while kissing her. When You feel her crumbling with passion,remind her its breakfast time and You are hungry. After all a slave trying to cook breakfast with jelly legs can be entertaining. Side not..also it can be fun when she is not allowed anything from her waist up but her collar..and bacon does splatter.When the slave has served You, have her kneel at Your feet, feed her little bites off your fork or Your hand. This reminds her she is a slave and your gentleness will start to calm her again and remind her of Your control.

 

If Your slave is still able to stand after the up and down ride,its time to finish her off. Take her in the bedroom and crank up the heat again. Silly slut will most likely think she is finally going to be rewarded with Your cock..but of course she is wrong., After all this is a mind fuck and a roller coaster ride, Grab the slut by the hair and bend her over Your bed. Rip her pants down and spank her bare ass with Your hand...has she had enough...hehehehe no she hasn't. Grab Your belt and beat her ass and back and legs..listen to her moans and hit harder. Just when You see she is lost in the passion and almost no return, tell her ok girl you can go now. How entertaining to watch her slither on the floor mumbling stupid shit while trying to dress...send her on her way and hope she has enough sense to remember her way home.

 

 

Naughty's random thoughts

Do you ever feel responsible for the things you say on the net?

i have been thinking about the groups and things people discuss on the web sites. i often wonder about how much of it has even the slightest bit of reality involved. How much of it is the norm for the couples on a daily basis. It always makes me wonder about the new ones that try to learn by reading these discussions and the effects it has on them. Does it cause them to judge themselves against the stories? Do they come out short in their minds due to what they have learned. Could this cause them discomfort and frustration?

So the first place i was taken was to be registered at the slave register. Oh my i was so excited. There were so many submissives there and they were so smart and lived such wonderful lives. i was in complete awe of them. i read as much as i could as often as i could. They were all so very happy and living the erotic dream. Never did i read that anyone could think anything but of his happiness. Every breath they took revolved around this concept.These were my role models...i wanted so much to be like them.

So many thoughts, so many theories were shared..even some of their kink. Their lives were fascinating to me as i hung on every word.To afraid to speak in the forums because i felt as if i wasn't on the same playing field as them...,after all i was brand new and in an on line/long distance relationship...what could i possibly contribute?

Time went by and i was released. i looked to these role models to see if i could find any answers in their obvious words of wisdom. There was nothing written anywhere on how the mind of a submissive is not always content and not always jumping for joy to please....was i the only one out there that felt any difficulty in following His orders above all else? Did this make me a bad submissive? A role i strapped on?

Deciding that i needed to learn even more so that i could correct all the failed behaviors, i joined fetlife and then the groups for other subs. This, i thought, should help teach me the proper mind set of a submissive. Now i have been in these web sites and groups for two years...and yes i have learned a great deal. i am grateful for the resources to do just that.

Now i am owned in real time and there is a complete difference in that of on line and that of real time...still i find myself not relating to a whole lot of what i read. This use to bother me a great deal. i questioned so much about me...even with the constant reminder that all submissives are like snowflakes..not two being the exact same. Still i wondered what the hell...

Ever since the very first word i have spoke on the net..i have spoke as i would in person. i have never felt the need to create a completely different character from who i am. i have never had the need to portray things in a prettier light so to speak..it is what it is...

So now i am quite vocal on the sites i belong to...i have spoke up a great deal on things i have felt passionate about. i have always tried to reach out to those subs that have been left behind and those who are feeling lost in their submission. i speak loudly of choice to submit and hot topics of that nature. i feel like sometimes even though it is putting yourself in a not so good light..its better to put it out there so that the new ones can learn its ok to not be the slave "rock star".

However i am one of the lucky ones. Master doesn't concern Himself with all my words. i have a great deal of freedom to do so. i can write all over the place preaching to the choir about choice...there is no punishment for this. Sometimes i feel alone in my beliefs about this lifestyle and i search for others that will speak with reality on their feelings...

i wonder to myself what in the hell the is the purpose of belonging to these discussion groups if there is fear of your thoughts and feelings? Example..when was the last time you read " he wanted me to do the laundry and i didn't feel like it, i did it but felt resentful the entire time"...why is this such a death sentence to tell of the truthful feelings that we submissives as human beings sometimes have...why have a group for submissives to discuss things if putting out their true feelings would be considered a slam and disrespect? Why can't anyone be honest about things like this? i am not saying everyday a sub might have resentment..but surely there are days that they want to say fuck it and leave..but they don't because they are truly happy, just happen to be having a bad day. Why is this so unforgivable?

i truly think that if more people spoke of the reality and not just the best days...it wouldn't be so hard on some when they sit in judgment of themselves due to the shit they read out here. Maybe it would help the submissives to b e able to say holy hell i had a hard week..i couldn't get my mind straight and i struggles through every action i made. What is so wrong about this and why is it so hush hush. Why can't their be some what of a more realistic talk about play? when i first started i thought submissives were fucked and beaten around the clock..imagine my surprise when i became real time and found out that Masters cant fuck you while working ...that life happens and doesn't always agree with your fantasy of the life of a slave...That sometimes as a couple ( i know the dirty vanilla word) sometimes you just don't want to fuck every night....why cant people speak with more reality that hey i get beat only on weekends or once every two weeks or once a month or omg every six months...and just say how wonderful it is. There is no shame in that...

There is a shame however in the fact that when one is new you cant possibly know just how much extra is written and how much less is reality. Not everyday is whips and chains as much as we would like them to be. Now i am not so cynical that i don't believe that some couples have the ability to fuck like rabbits around the clock...beat the crap out of their slaves each and everyday...but i think that there are more that have to live life and get it when they can then those that experience that. i also believe i am not the only one out there that has had off days and Master's happiness was not the top of my list to do that day. i am after all human with selfish needs and sometimes the human in me kicks the slave in me to the back burner. Does this make me a bad person? i think this makes me real...

i just wish when i was new that there had been more reality and less fantasy and maybe the growing process wouldn't have been so painful...